What did studying mean back in school? I have been in a Catholic Co-ed school which had such strict principles and rules that I can’t seem to understand. The school principal was always a nun. And she made it clear to us as crystal that Education meant the overall growth of students and not just the knowledge gained from the books. My school has been active in making a few arrangements about studies, projects, games, competitions. And although I agree that they were not a tonne of them, they sufficed. Rules were hard to follow especially that segregated boys and girls. But I guess That was okay, considering that school has us in early stages of life where rights and wrongs were an unknown thing. And the tender age at which we could get swayed, we were handled well. Discipline is one of the best things taught at school and it is also one of the major things that stays with us for a long time. And apart from all this,the burden of organising programs and events never fell on our shoulders directly. The decoration, the building beautification, was never our concern. Our bother was only about what can be done on our part, in our classrooms. Though it did not give us the capability to handle events,it prepared us bit by bit. From arranging flowers on teachers’ day to handing bouquets, from selection in programs to taking initiatives, from participating in events to representing school and from arranging farewell to enjoying farewell, We grew up in phases. And these have been good.
The abrupt shift in higher secondary in the syllabus is where we start killing our creativity and sit tight with our books and schedules. And the day we enter college,it becomes hell. To carry on with something you like is great but being so overly immersed in it while being at pause with ourselves is definitely undone. The responsibilities bow us down and the way it mounts on one, it is a tragic story. College does not let you grow gradually. Either you grow abruptly there or none at all. Because the concept of scapegoat is quite prominent. One person starts the job,and it is the same one to take it to the finish line. And that’s why it is weird. It is difficult to find a stable bunch that would do the job. At least that’s what happens in my case. I hate people generally and it has filled me with so much anger and disgust that now I rarely wish to take up a new job role. I love to do things and that was the sole reason for me being the lead. But these burdens have lowered my shoulders so much that now I absolutely enjoy sitting in my room. I need to be pulled out of my room,i.e,when things go south or people need me.
Randomly a week back,someone expressed the desire that I should have been the Event Coordinator for college fest. And I don’t understand the audacity of people. Maybe because I can,they wish for me. But what about them? You could volunteer for once. Ask for help and get it done. But no. Ego, it might be. Well anyways, I guess I studied well in school and am a fine student in college. Though these events will not land me a job, I hope they give me an edge and my efforts get me somewhere good.
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Until next time!
Signing off
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